this post is meant for Emily: (outsider please do not talk)

hmm.. i really don't know how to start.but the decision u made, i think is wrong Ba. u make ur effort into this course, i know u might not like this course, but no matter how, u have been in this course for a few months Le. it is just a year course u know.

every one of us including teachers (Mrs tahir, Mr yeo, Mr tan, Mrs lim) they are all so concern about you. i can feel the care for you from them . that's what make me post this to u as u didn't want to reply and i don want to disturb you.

the class of Ir3 always ask me about you. their expression is so sincere.i always believe you would come back. i always place my debt on u. i trust that u will come back. but till today, Ur absents are starting to make my heart bleeding bit by bit. i keep on trying to make you change Ur decision , but the answer u gave me seems to be empty. i always didn't able to get the answer i want.

every time they ask me about you, they can see my facial expression changed suddenly,from normal till sad, from normal till disappointed.

just to let you know, Mrs tahir asked me about you, i tried to shield u no matter what lame excuses i used. she know u got personal problem. she is willing to help you . but you aren't giving Ur own self a chance. she also tried to called you also, but nothing in return. i can see her expression, it wasn't anger, it was worries. i can sense it that she really hopes that you can come back. she really hopes that you can attend lessons.

Mr yeo turn, he asked about you too. he cares about you.i can see it . but i got to use disappointed answer to reply him. he didn't say much but i could see he cares. like today, having crn test. he say that if we are able to wake u up, at least u can rush for ur exam. he didn't even say u are hopeless or what .

Mrs lim also, she called me in the afternoon about you. she asked me what happen to you. she asked me alot of things. i cant give her the answer she wants. she even called to my home just to ask me about you. where in this world got this kind of teacher who will do that. which teacher would willing to waste their effort on someone who has different blood? can u see the care and concern??

did u see missed calls?
did u see messages?
did u see concern??
did u see the love we gave it to u??
did u see the care ??
did u see our worries??
did u see our heartache??
did u see our hopes??
did u see the effort we gave it to u??

we cant do much as this is Ur path. i just don want to see ur regret faces. ur bf is graduating soon. if he also drop out? is it worth?? he spent his years in ite yet in the end came out nothing . it is such a waste u know?? if u want to discontinue studying, at least u should finish this course and get a cert. at least the pay would be higher and more experience. didn't u want to earn more?

i really hope u can change Ur mind. signing a form is easy, but returning to school is difficult. didn't we made our own promises ? going to higher nitec?? our dreams we made. but the way Ur thinking now, starting to make myself doubt. you are the first person in my life who i am so concern about. even my friend also notice it. they ask me why?? i told them u can do it! u will come to school. i trust the promises u gave it to me.

even Mrs tahir notice the effort we put in for you. the concern we care for you. i know u always say u couldn't wake up, but did u tried Ur best to sleep early?? i always see ur blog which kills my heart. the word u says. giving up and so on...

no matter how tired i am , no matter how sick i am... no matter how busy i am... i will still tried my best to help you. but did u give yourself a chance??

sometimes people say negative about u, but i will say positive about you. i believed in you.

no matter how much i say, u still decided to quit this family course.

please do one thing for me.

when u come to school to sign this form, pls don't come find me. i does not want you to see my expression. i does not want to see you leaving this school. just let the matter goes...

no matter what... please remember that our family still loves you ... (Cassandra~Christine~Christina~azmi~Michelle~nithiya~Sarah and last of all is me)

our teachers who also loves you
(Mrs tahir, Mrs lim, Mr tan, Mr yeo)

our classmates who loves you
(class of Ir3)


dissapointed;
lay yen
09:24pm