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26 March 2007

enough!!!

Notice!!!!

What I say will hurt a lot of people especially my friends…because what I going to say is about the friends I had now…. I decided to say all this because I am too frustrated… if anyone got angry with what I say so be it… this is not the first time I say le… I now very sad and angry… really… I don’t bother much now…. If you feel hurt… or unhappy with me…. So be it… and also not be friend with me anymore…for this time…. I will write out the entire thing …including me myself…as I said… I am not perfect at all… I have a lot of negative…

About myself….

I know I am low self esteem… I know I am stubborn… I know I very noisy…I know I very what… I know I sometimes will act as da jie tou… I know I am very bad… I know I like to give attitude… I know I always mood swing… I know my family doesn’t like me at all…including my friends… my relative… they all give me that kind of face… even my teachers…I know a lot of people doesn’t like me… I know that some will have a very negative about me but doesn’t say out only... What I hope is to tell me personally… I might not listen well… but I will try…please take note… I am now very frustrated and I will put blame on others… if I did … I am sorry about it…

To pearlyn…

I know you nearly half a year…if I am not wrong… I did like to understand people behind their back… I am sorry to write this… if you feel hurt… I couldn’t do anything to it… because I now very vexed and all my anger is fully stuffed in my heart… I did message you… trying to contact you as so long never meet le… but what have you given me back?? I have been waiting for your message… do u know how pain I was… when studying… I keep looking at my phone whether you got reply… even you reply a don’t know I would also be happy… but every minutes I waited … I felt more sad…you once said those people who never reply you… but do u understand when someone waiting for you to reply?? To tell you seriously…I did very angry with you because this is not the first time you had done it to me… I did have negative comment about you... But wasn’t that bad… because I know how you were like… did I owe or do anything wrong to you?? Y must I have this kind of stupid thing?? Things have not finished… if you think there is no use to carry on our friendship…I think it is better to break our friendship… at that time…I will stop message you or ….. I mean it… if you think this is better… tag me or message me… from then onwards… I will not do anything le….but thanks god to let me know you….

To yee Shan….

To tell you truly… I really have a lot of negative for you…I am sorry if I am hurting you also…to say it seriously… as I have known you for more than 4 years…. you had dependent on us too much le… didn’t you feel that?? Not only did I… there are people also thinking like that...don’t depend on us too much… this will cause no good for you… cant you be more punctual?? I really hated waiting …although I did late for sometime… but I did try to come early next time…. don you feel my tone have change as every time I reply or answer ur call…. I tell you this … because I think I should tell you… you are too choosey le… at least got something … but you scared this scared that…how about in future?? Did you look further in Ur future?? You are doing it for yourselves and not us…do you know a lot of them think quite a bottom of you?? Maybe you don understand… but you are to “innocent “le…not everything will move smoothly… work will somehow be tough… no work in this world will run smoothly… the main reason got to depend on Ur appearance… not outer beauty… but inner…it got to depend on your character… I did tell you also of time… people see how you react… not how you look… sometime you react very blur…tell you one more tips… to get the job… don put too much high expectation…and also… don ask for much… also…don ask anyone to accompany… this will cause people to think that you still need someone to go with you… that all from my working experience…if you got any negative… write on ur blog…I will go and see… I will try to change… I wrote all this because I hope you will change too… this will make more people to like you even better…but thanks god to make me know you…you are kind to people … but some time.. The way you interact… might be wrong…

To li Mei…
I don’t have negative about you… as I don’t really go out with you much…thanks god to let me know you… maybe because of superband… I know I did have a lot of negative… I am sorry about it… you are a great friend to me…maybe I don’t know you well as I didn’t really have much contact with you… I believe you are someone who willing be a good listener…and also someone to talk to… remember to write my entire negative to me… don keep it into Ur heart… I willing to read… do write in Ur blog…I will go read….

To Stephanie…

Sometimes I may be bad to you… I know you also like to talk behind one back too…. But if you got negative about me …do tell in front of me… don’t say at back…I not saying you talk bad about me behind my bad… is just that I believe you will have negative for me too…I sure you have… so tell me!!! Don keeps it… I really wanted to know… you are kind to people … but sometimes… what you do… people might disagree….

To all….
We had hardly made a group… we get to know through a show… we get to be friends through people around… we get together because we are fate… we are very good friends because we have same liking… we understand what we like …. What we hate… but aren’t we trying to have stronger bonds?? Why our group are so weak... I am so envious with others… theirs can last for so long… yet … what about us?? Every time I think about this problem… my heart breaks… I have been trying hard… I know there are so much misunderstanding… why must be like that?? If think that there is on use of our group… I think it is better to disband…. Just like soul…. No use of forcing anymore…. What is bygone is bygone… why must rank it up again??? I am not in good mood while writing all this… I am feeling really sad… really sad… as I do not really like to tell anyone how I feel as I am more inner… I will not cry in front of anyone… I will take it to myself… if there is no needing to carry on our friendship… so is it to break it now…. Better in future there will be more pain….anyone can understand??? I doubt…I did make a group before… but is also disband le…not spy… but is a group with jam….our group aren’t that strong… I have finished my piece of word….